dur!

maybe S is right... he does see us no up is it! I will fight for my clients! okay.. I shall not personalize things! dur! arggghhh!

bleah!

 

sigh...

It was the last paper yesterday!

 

Yes I was happy… ‘cos it means I need not do any assignment or exam paper again! Heee! Was so happy until I couldn’t sleep lah! There are just so many other things I wanna do… in fact it was easy for me to jump to the next thing I have on the list quickly… but I told myself to slow down…

 

Back to work today… there are many things to do… many challenges… that right now they made me wanna run away…

 

Yes I am affected by what I heard from a dear colleague turned friend… though we are busy and don’t get to meet for makan or gai gai after work… there is this connection that is linking us for the past many years we worked together or simply being around… when I heard her asked me “where is the grace?”… I was dumbfounded… yes I had no answer for her… somehow I feel that whatever I say it’s going to be excuses I make up for others and myself… tears then welled up in my eyes…

 

The heart is saddened…

but why does it seems forever???

boo hoo!

last day of sanity tmr as course is starting again on Fri! may i survive and do well! end-october quick come!

i want a relaxing holiday!

冲冲冲！That's what i have been doing... my gosh... or is my threshold for stress and busyness lower now? i want a holiday!

i hate problems!

maybe i'm the same as my colleague...

wants peace and tranquillity...

problems go away! I DON"T LIKE YOU!

辛苦的时候。。。

在树上唱歌

想要光着脚丫 在树上唱歌

你说的每个笑话我都笑了
是你变幽默还是我变快乐
好久不见你说我大不相同
偷偷告诉你 我的心去整型了

不想对每件事情都那么严格
弄得全世界好像只剩挫折
爱一朵花不猜它能开多久
放宽了心情 把什么都变美了

想要光着脚丫在树上唱歌
好多事物全被缩小了
心里不想放的 就去了 算了
让太阳把脸庞给晒得红彤彤

想要吹着口哨在树上唱歌
要像开往远方的火车
可以那么轻快的穿过山洞
大树上还很空 你要不要陪我

你说的每个笑话我都笑了
是你变幽默还是我变快乐
好久不见你说我大不相同
偷偷告诉你 我的心去整型了

不想对每件事情都那么严格
弄得全世界好像只剩挫折
爱一朵花不猜它能开多久
放宽了心情 把什么都变美了

想要光着脚丫在树上唱歌
好多事物全被缩小了
心里不想放的 就去了 算了
让太阳把脸庞给晒得红彤彤

想要吹着口哨在树上唱歌
要像开往远方的火车
可以那么轻快的穿过山洞
大树上还很空 你要不要陪我

想要光着脚丫在树上唱歌
好多事物全被缩小了
心里不想放的 就去了 算了
让太阳把脸庞给晒得红彤彤

想要吹着口哨在树上唱歌
要像开往远方的火车
可以那么轻快的穿过山洞
大树上还很空 你要不要陪我

想要光着脚丫 在树上唱歌

supposed to post this last night...

it's been a tiring week... both at work and at home...

took leave on Fri to settle some things at home... thank the Lord for the rest He has given me these two days and the courage to face adversities... indeed jie reminded me that in critical moments it's not me but it's God... hence i need to pray, believe and obey...

a friend showed me something interesting abt my name... shall blog abt it soon... it also reminded me something my cell leader wrote for me years ago... thanks p :)

some thots...

haven't been blogging... work has been busy!

many cases to handle and i am still learning... just like what i told some friends... i wish i have a magic wand that would make everything ok instantly! but i don't...

i'm learning....

when someone doubts your ability... don't ignore it... don't react to it... but find out why the person says so... ask leading questions... then you get to understand and maybe prove your point! or if you are really not up to mark... it is an opportunity to improve...

the importance of multi-disciplinary team approach... know that in the world... you are not alone... and you can't do everything...

the importance of maintaining sanity... to rest is to go a longer distance... so need to learn to let go...

life's little things...

hee... this is something i want now! but it is out-of-stock!

impulsive need? hehe... i see it as retail therapy :p

books to read now! gosh so many!

thanks to cy who gave all her Tory Hayden's & Jodi Picoult's to py and i!

not that i am not reading... but i am struggling with journals & text!

i want to read my novels!

Life have been busy... or should i say i dun have much brain cells left each day after work... work has not been busy... many things to do... many things i dunno how to approach... faint...

wanted to meet jie today to attend her church service and paint after that... but jie is sick so need to rest... then what should i do? wrapped all my books and blogging now... going to try complete reading the journals i have selected (a journey article a week go go go!)... weather is pretty hot today... should i run?

a tired jass...

回想起小时候听过的一首歌，它仿佛在安慰着我。。。

擦干泪滴
看小小幼苗有多坚强，
任雨打风吹都不怕难，
它呼吸着空气和阳光，
一天天的成长。

看小小鸟儿有多勇敢，
它就要学习如何飞翔，
它努力的挥动着翅膀，
遨游在云端。

你要学会自己擦干泪滴，
懂得如何跌倒再爬起，
拥有幼苗坚强的毅力，
不轻易放弃。

你要学会自己擦干泪滴，
懂得如何跌倒再爬起，
拥有鸟儿勇敢的努力，
从不轻易放弃。

i am finally getting there:)

finally not so far away from completion!

the week has been busy with many other things that have happened...

grandma is still in hospital.... thank God for the successful op and the good recovery so far... hope that grandma will be strengthened with the therapy to come...

something very sad has happened... God pls be with y and her family... i really do not understand why this happened... but Lord you know... so pls comfort the family and be with them through this extremely difficult time...

sigh....

with all these happening... i felt tired emotionally and physically today... decided to go for a short run... it has to be short cos i have not been running for weeks! managed to do 5km today... short but a good start.. remembered i started with 1km years ago... and built up to my 21km last year... so not too bad to start with 5km...hopefully building up to 25km this year...

busy week... busy day...

sometimes i do feel that blogging helps me to summarise my thoughts... and close certain things in mind to free up space...haha... i think i need more "me" time... haha... had a little today when i was alone at home for a few hours.... slept... watched tv... bought kfc for dinner... then it was over... family came back... haha...

din go for painting class today though i planned to go and managed to step out of my house... haha... but it started to rain cats and dogs! so i think suan le... shall do make up and return home to have some "me" time! since everyone is out! hahah!

the run today was ok today.... 2 weeks din run and a long run today! wanted to stop walk at the last few km... but persevered... with the long run coming up in mind! funny ade and i... we could not find the starting point (lack of signs and we were bad at directions... and ade's iphone could not help!)... haha... so in the end we just joined the run after getting some help from one of the officials... so we missed abt 1.29km... haha.... and ran 8.71km... my timing was abt 1:05... so i think abt there lah... hehe.... but it was very hot (we started at 8 plus... too late. lah..)... haha... ade says should be a evening run... hope her headache from the heat is gone... i salute those who can under at 12pm! gosh!

next week gonna be an entire week of meeting at school... faint.... hope things will go well...

still praying for sm... Lord pls heal her....

life at work...

work life has not been easy... especially the last week... many things involved clients, students and staff have happened...

it's tiring me... thus making me realized the importance of self-care to run the race longer... thank God i was able to complete work for the week so that i managed to rest during weekend... did 2 runs.... first was fri for 1h 04 mins.... second was this evening... same route at 1h 02 mins... haha... running helps me to calm down... and have an avenue to vent frustrations.... also clears my mind of many many... maybe too many thoughts....

the week to come would not be easy either.... but hope things will be better and that there would be reconciliations....

shall go back to oil painting soon!

long overdue post!

a lot to express.... little words to say... see the images...haha

took an image of my table (during my tiny winy break) while writing thesis!

see so many books! never anyhow write! haha!

so glad it is done! thank you God!

a bottle cl prepared for me on our last session....

full of messages cl and i wrote to remember the journey we had....

really thank God for cl....

oil painting progress!
sigh dun think i can finish with one more session....

a new cd i recently bought!
emi fujita has an angelic voice! very nice ah!
why is she coming to singapore when i am going tokyo! faintz!

thesis...

"我的论文是..." 竟有如 "我的理想是..." 的那一种感觉...

虽然近几个月很辛苦... 但过程的确让我更加了解艺术疗法...

haha... wonder why chinese? think i got sick of typing in eng that i just need to see chinese characters! haha... hmm... have been diligently working on thesis since i came back from oil painting... in fact has been working on it since thesis proposal in oct 2008! then doing the actual clinical work for a year... then now the writing... been pretty intense isn't it... haha... it's really hard work! and its the last lap now! hope i survive! and survive well!!!

reading reading....

such an apt image!

now that clinical internship is over... it is really just papers!

gosh... everyday i am reading more... and having new insights to my thesis... then writes more each day! when will finish! aiyo! papers overdose!

jie and L agreed to proofread my thesis for me! hope they dun vomit blood! haha... my thesis sup is simply.... hasn't reply till now... it's so delayed till i really kind of like dun want to give a **** abt his feedback... though i know i should look at them... but he is just so.....

jass gambatei!

gambatei, gambatei, gambatei!

jass is really at the final lap of her Masters race! (haha... such a nice race name... haha... oppss...) hehe... but really... finishing in less than a mth! though exhibition is in May... i am done with my art piece! haha... so proud of myself!

so must let the adrenaline cont to rush! thesis on 16th apr, final clinical supervision paper on 20th apr and journal paper on 27th apr... then done! ok... still got that silly concept proposal for the silly male artist lecturer...hahaha... then seriously done!

jia you, jia you, jia you! focus, focus, focus!

anything.... all after this period! haha!

生命中一个小小旅程杯。。。

今天。。。 我完成了生命中一个小小旅程杯。。。

that is...

816 hours of clinical internship hours!!! yes!!!

a crazy time!

the past two weeks has been a crazy time for me... a paper every week... plus thesis second draft submission... on top of clinical work and classes.... faint... thank God i survived...

yesterday was the climax... met ying in school at 1030h to work on thesis and case study... took 2 hours to discuss with Ying to finalise on her format and mine... i thought i was ready to submit second draft first... then work on case study.... but more thoughts came in as in read.... so worked on it further.... and did not get to complete case study.... in fact only started it...

ying left before dinner to meet her editor... i went for dinner then went to c's place to help her with referencing and formatting.... that was when i did a round of proof-reading for mine and finally submitted at 2230h! i'm still looking for my editor... hmmm.... then started to work on c's thesis with c... thot will not take too long... but we only finished at 0145h! faint... she was late in submission... hope it is ok for her... her thesis sup seems like a nice person... hahaha... ask me abt mine? shall tell u next time.... haha... then we were both very hungry and 'high' by then... ok or i was the one ver 'high' as c would say... haha... thus we went for supper! dim sum at yishun! yum yum... thanks c for the nice treat! hence when i finally hit the bed after bathing... it was already 0400h! faint rite.... ya... then i woke up at 1215 just now....

simply madness... now case study to write! but my brain feels like it needs an urgent op... die...

hehe... an artwork done on 16 mar 10...

ade... it was inspired from the many (think 6!)

overhead bridges we climbed during the run!

looking at it... i also wanna ask... am i there yet?

the very question i wanna ask when writing thesis and papers!