it used to be this way right?

since when did i turned to be so complicated?

i wanna be as simple as i used to be again....

sigh... i have a new added wish....

found this book in the library! pretty cool! hehe... haven't started reading though....

sigh... is what you say really true? is that what you really want? then maybe i should do it... but then again... do i have the means to do just that? can i bear to do that?

a new added resolution in life... i will never be a parent!

hmmm... perhaps it is time...

hehe... this is especially to ade and crow....

it was so timely yesterday when all text me... sorry i did not reply....

could not stand certain things my mom did and i walked out of home yesterday... sigh... it is long story... but things are bad now... a lot of tension at home... well it is always like that when i retaliate in my own way... think my mom can't take it when the mildest person at home go against her... but i simply could not take it anymore... i was at my brim... going nuts...

well i am ok... but it did set me thinking... since the last time i retaliated... yesterday was the second... that perhaps it is really 相见容易相处难... that perhaps it is time to depend on yourself... solely.... just like what they do in the states...

time to blog!

hehe.... been so busy with assignments and readings... as well as tuition and teaching.... wow.... but now time to blog! yup blogging helps me to collect my thoughts... especially those that are lost in lala land....hehe....

tuition... 有时候你真的让我很生气啊！皇上不急太监急！sigh.... but i am ok after the tuition lah... i am not angry at my kid... but the things she does! e anyhow do and dun care attitude really scary lah... dun work hard some more how.... sigh... but i also noe there is just this much i can do.... hmm.... persevere though!

hehe.... abcd met up on fri! and ate the delicious sembawang KFC! hehe... but ade sae very oily... hehe... she is very healthy! hehe... aiyo and fang came late... so by the time she eat not so nice le.... but it's the company that counts too! hehe... came to my place after that... and my high C amazes them i think...haha... din know i have a resource library! haha... but it is good to share resources! happy reading my friends... haha... the image i show u all! dun tell anyone else! haha.... maybe shouldn't have shown u all! hmph! hehe... remember it is in the context of the dream! the words too... spontaneous but in the contect of e dream! not reality! haha.... he called again today... but i was sleeping so din answer... seriously wonder why he calls.... but i choose to assume it is just due to work! haha... i mean seriously... over le lah... so abcd! dun try! haha... this is my order to u all! hehe... i really had a good time with u all... in the midst of all our busy schedules, we took time to meet up! it's great!

oil painting.... look at the progress... i wonder if i can complete by end of this year! faint! it is so difficult lah! especially the faces!

abt school... it is really the assignments peak now! less than a month before the break! i need a part time job that pays well! haha.. anyone any lobang? hehe... hmmm.... better do them... gambatei! work hard! it's by grace i got the course! so cannot let Him and everyone and myself down! I CAN DO IT! hehe... self-soothing... haha... did the image in my journal today... i kind of like it...hehe...

a short post...

have not been blogging... have been busy with assignments.... and fell sick again too... sigh.... but now better le... still have tons of assignments though! hehe...

hmm... things have been ok.. except for some silly dreams i had... crow knows.. haha...

hehe... still teaching for **.... the kids are simply adorable! hehe... one fine day i went in for lesson... a little came to me and say... i like you! because u r pretty! hehe!.... haha... yes i was elated... hehe.... but there are still some things that ** does which made me wanna scream at them! so nope! not going to extend! haha off they go!

ha... tmr i gonna see the kids again! hehe....

oki a super short post! gonna return to my readings!

artworks i did...

"I Have a Dream"

On Adulthood...

a new path... a path I think less will want to travel...

calmness, comfort and freshness - a new dream...

a search of a new dream in life...

a dream that will be able to renew my passion...

an enjoyable and therapeutic time...

"Searching"
On Adolescence...

searching for my identity, understanding the world around... testing limits

discovering the potential in me...

while taking different paths and trying out new experiences....

contributed to who I am today...

a very productive day....

hee... i'm so glad that i did not end up nuaing today... haha... was so tempted to do so while snoozing on bed... hehe... tempted to take a break from oil painting class... haha... has been working on the piece for so long! think more than 2 mths le... still not done... haha... but i'm glad i went! hehe... did alot today... cos finally the 3 faces are out! hehe... not the details though... hee... but i am still happy! can't wait to finish! I THINK IT IS NICE! hehe... and indeed remind me of the children in tibet...

after oil painting... i went for a jog! hehe... not very long... abt 3.2km.... but good enough for me! lost the momentum when i started class... haha... so glad i went... felt very good... very healthy too! hehe... but too long never run.. very slow... alot of guys ran past me! irritating...haha... but still good... weather was good too... enjoyed the nice sunset and breeze!

hee... gonna start a new week again... lots of readings and assignments... just completed my artwork on adulthood... shall blog abt it soon... i enjoyed the process... a time of reflection ya....

finally a happier day after a week of gloomy days....

a flat tyre...

i guess sometimes it's only a flat tyre in the rain... haha... ya now the tyre is really flat!

hmm.... i wonder if i do think too much and ask too much of myself at times... it's so hard... ah... guess i really need to accept myself and let go of certain things... if not i gonna go mad....

hehe... something happier... now u hear this nice song! yup it will cont to spur me on!

i wanna do an artwork but keep procrastinating... sigh...

a song to spur me on...

I Have a Dream

I have a dream, a song to sing

To help me cope with anything

If you see the wonder of a fairy tale

You can take the future even if you fail

I believe in angels

Something good in everything I see

I believe in angels

When I know the time is right for me

I'll cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a fantasy

To help me through reality

And my destination makes it worth the while

Pushing through the darkness still another mile

I believe in angelsSomething good in everything I see

I believe in angels

When I know the time is right for me

I'll cross the stream - I have a dream

I'll cross the stream - I have a dream