drowning in thesis...

faintz... my brain is really almost dead... since sch started i have had many days and nights (though not the entire day or night) staring at my thesis... rewriting, editing, strengthening, adding... which i am still at the beginning and yet to get to the main meaty part!!! furthermore... there are still the other papers and presentations!!! faint!

especially today... and in fact last thurs as well... it's almost 10 hours in front of my lappie with many books and notes on my table... faint...

i'm seriously going to be braindead soon... and the deadline is on 5th feb! seriously seriously fainting... think my body is first to detect the stress by letting pimples appear on my face! SILLY PIMPLES GO AWAY AND NEVER COME BACK! sigh... really gonna say bye bye to the 2 gatherings cum bday celebrations this weekend...

constant look of a part of my table since school started...

i am not working hard enough...

ah! i am so going to....

first draft of thesis is due on 5th feb! and i am still not working hard enough! been feeling tired and lethargic... faintz....

completed process notes 1... working on the second one... much is happening at clinical placement... but...

i am still not progressing fast enough!

life to be for the next 3.5 mths...

school - clinical placement - papers - thesis - personal therapy

oil painting update!

progress-thus-far... hehe...

only 3.5 more mths to go...

as the title of this entry suggests... yeah only 3.5 more mths to go before i would complete the course... end my life as a student... and as a training AT (not that i will stop learning after that... in fact gonna continue)... but yeah... it is the completion of this phase on my life... in other words... it is also 2.5 more mths of work with clients in clinical internship....

sessions with clients which started this week have been very intense and powerful... guess i was not totally prepared for it... but i tried my best and i think i did well... i wonder if that is how cl also feels when i go and see her each week... esp the weeks when the issues were harder to process....

i also wonder if it was the air at the internship place that is too dusty for me... i fell sick straight after the first day of work there... then dong thru and went to school on tues... then dong thru and went for the second day of clinical work on wed... which i'm glad i did... but after that my body collapsed too... slept straight from 7pm-10am after taking medicine... my body needed that long to fight the virus.... though the fever did come back for a little while on thurs... the good thing is.... i am ok now... hehe....

entering this entry from the NLB study lounge... crow we must come together! hehe.... completed my first process notes assignment... started on the second which is due next next week... then put in the things (not all yet) i have for thesis in a single document... page count stopped at 31 pages.... first draft is due beginning feb... wonder what am i going to do! faint...

on a not so related mode... i saw a lady here.... i think she is rushing some proposal or work related stuff... such a workaholic.... dun even have time for lunch! and she looked damn tired! to my friends who are very busy at work... i know u are.... PLEASE REMEMBER TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF TOO!

starting again...

started my final clinical internship today... my heart feels very heavy.... not too sure why but probably due to one of the cases... really not sure how i can help... (taking time to digest too...)

the bulk of last week was spent at an international conference... it was an eye opener... i feel so small amidst all the international and local delegates... realised that indeed my journey has just begun...

new year RESOLUTION...

jass' new year resloution: don't lose any of her things...

cos she just lost her mp3 player today after losing her phone recently...

shit!

an overdue post...

an overdue post... hehe... cos it's about 2010 resolutions! opppss... which i have not thought about yet... haha...

holidays are gone in a flash! faint... there are things that i wanted to do but have not done... things i have successfully completed... let's summarise a little... haha...

• worked at *** (first on the list cos it took up most of my time)... the good thing is it contributed to the BACKPACK JAPAN FUND with abc! hehe...
• ran and painted almost every week.... almost... haha... started on new painting for graduation show... a run coming up in Feb! all work in progress!
• went for a short break and shopping spree at KL!
• read a book but have not finished...
• DIY-ed pressies for my dear advisers and abc... and got other pressies for impt ppl...
• attended Christmas with abc and celebrated Christmas and crow's bday where abcd are all present!
• stayed at home to watched tv on new year's eve! haha... finished some overdue dramas too!
• celebrated honey's bday with where all advisers are all present!
• packed my room (always packing i realised... haha)
• confirmed final clinical internship placement

think that is all... but what have i not done? i have not done solid school work! THESIS! i am so dead... sigh...

on another note... oil painting progress below... hehe...

Stage 2: blackness... depressing yeah... hehe....

Stage 3: finally some light!!!

what about 2010 resolutions? hmmm... i think i do not have them because 2010 will be a very transitional year for me... a big part is to complete the course and transit into the new career... hopefully will be smooth-sailing! haha... then the other big part is japan backpack with abc... though we also thot of a service trip...haha... that pretty much cover 2010... and of cos in the midst injected with runs and art.... so do i still need resolutions? hmmm...

something small for my dear friends...

During the gathering...

wen: (opening the present) what is this ah?

me: you see lah....

wen: (focusing on the back of the canvas) oh i know! photo frame!

me: ... (fainting)

wen: but hor... if put pic liao... how to see the pic? you bought wrongly ah??

me: ... (seriously fainting)

yun: eh you bought it ah? what is this ah? if buy one no sincerity leh...

jia: (finally opened the present) no lah! she paint one!

wen: (finally) oh not a photo frame! it's for hanging one! a painting lah! (pointed to a painting on the wall of the place we were in)

me: ... (wanna cry liao) ...

disclaimer: i may have forgotten who say what... but this is what i remembered! haha...

such are jass' 5 lovely advisers... haha...

jass to honey, jia, hui, yun and wen: 在新的2010里, 你们都要很幸福哦！