oil painting update!

slow progress!

圣诞节快乐！ 愿你永远幸福！

什么是幸福
作者：小小的雪儿

人们通常会说：幸福是一种抽象的感受，而美国一家把幸福作为研究目的的科研机构得出结论，幸福与年龄、性别和家庭背景无关，而是来自于一份轻松的心情和健康的生活态度。研究者通过对生活得轻松而幸福的人的研究，总结了10条在生活中令自己幸福的秘诀。

1. 不抱怨生活：幸福的人并不比其他人拥有更多的幸福，而是因为他们对待生活和困难的态度不同，他们从不问“为什么”，而是问“为的是什么”，他们不会在“生活为什么对我如此不公平”的问题上做过长时间的纠缠，而是努力去想解决问题的方法。
   
   
2. 不贪图安逸：幸福的人总是离开让自己感到安逸的生活环境，幸福有时是离开了安逸生活才会积累出的感觉，从来不求改变的人自然缺乏丰富的生活经验，也就难感受到幸福。
   
   
3. 感受友情：广交朋友并不一定带来幸福感，而一段深厚的友谊才能让你感到幸福，友谊所衍生的归属感和团结精神让人感到被信任和充实，幸福的人几乎都拥有团结人的天才。
   
   
4. 勤奋工作：专注于某一项活动能够刺激人体内特有的一种荷尔蒙的分泌，它能让人处于一种愉悦的状态。研究者发现，工作能发掘人的潜能，让人感到被需要和责任，这给予人充实感。
   
   
5. 降低负面影响：少接受些有关灾难、谋杀或其他的负面消息，这样，无形中就保持了对世界的一份美好乐观的态度。
   
   
6. 生活的理想：幸福的人总是不断地为自己树立一些目标，通常我们会重视短期目标而轻视长期目标，而长期目标的实现更能给我们带来幸福感受，你可以把你的目标写下来，让自己清楚地知道为什么而活。
   
   
7. 给自己动力：通常人们只有通过快乐和有趣的事情才能够拥有轻松的心情，但是幸福的人能从恐惧和愤怒中获得动力，他们不会因困难而感到沮丧。
   
   
8. 规律的生活：幸福的人从不把生活弄得一团糟，至少在思想上是条理清晰的，这有助于保持轻松的生活态度，他们会将一切收拾得有条不紊，整齐而有序的生活让人感到自信，也更容易感到满足和快乐。
   
   
9. 珍惜时间：幸福的人很少体会到被时间牵着鼻子走的感觉，另外，专注还能使身体提高预防疾病的能力，因为，每30分钟大脑会有意识地花90秒收集信息，感受外部环境，检查呼吸系统的状况以及身体各器官的活动。
   
   
10. 心怀感激：抱怨的人把精力全集中在对生活的不满之处，而幸福的人把注意力集中在能令他们开心的事情上，所以，他们更多地感受到生命中美好的一面，因为对生活的这份感激，所以他们才感到幸福。

dear jon... happy belated birthday...

read ade's blog and realised i missed an impt date...

dear jon... ms chen loves you too...

thank you for all the joy you have brought into my life...

i'm sure you have had BIG and yummy birthday cake in heaven :)

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dear Lord, please continue to watch over the family and bless them...

it has been three years....

sunflowers overdose!

gosh.... after 5 hours of painting....

all you see are...

an inspiring and touching story...

just watched this korean movie based on a true story... a 19-yr-old boy with autism completed his 42.195km marathon in 2hr57mins07secs...

inspired me to... hahaha... but i think i can't make it... hahaha...

the story gave me a fresh new perspective of running a marathon...

a privilege to run...

just read a post on mrbrown abt 4-year-old Jerry who crawled his way to the finishing line of the kids' 750m race at sc run... Jerry has spina bifida, a spinal defect which causes his lower body to be especially weak... but he rose up to the challenge and did it becos God told him to crawl!

reminded me of one of the things i thought of during the run... to be specific... it was when i was abt to give up running and succumb to walking before the 16km-mark (my aim was to at least run 16-km without stopping, except for the few steps at the water points)... at that point... sm came to my mind... and i rem telling God that if i were to persevere and continue running... He will then heal sm faster...

though training is tough... and sometimes i lose the momentum to run regularly... i think that to be able to run is a privilege... in fact to be healthy is the greatest blessing... sm's accident has hit me quite badly when i first heard it... and i was fearful of running for a while... but i also witnessed how the Lord pulled her through and His miracles in her life throughout this difficult period....

though i do not know sm prior to the unfortunate accident... my hear went out to her and has prayed very hard for her healing...

sm... jia you! we are still praying for you! you will be able to run again! AMEN!

eh serious?!

rank: 869 of?

a cool video to share:)

21 km and 2 days of muscle ache!

jass did it in 2hrs48mins01secs! not bad lah....

though slower than my aim by 3mins01secs!

oil painting update!

gosh... look at the flowers!

Being a Therapist: A Labor of Love

Being a Therapist: A Labor of Love
by Jason Saffer, M.A., Licensed Marriage and Family Therapist

She had spent the last hour crying as she had never cried before. Now, she felt stronger. Her eyes glowed with a new understanding and her face reflected a new clarity. As the woman dried her eyes and walked out the door, I remembered again what I loved about being a therapist: it was such a satisfying feeling assisting people to recover their true selves.

This 36 year old woman was leaving my office after spending close to an hour getting in touch with her feelings of grief, sadness, and anger that were the legacy of her childhood emotional abuse and incest. She had come into therapy initially without any remembrance of these traumas but with symptoms including alcoholism and nighttime anxieties. But at this point in her therapy work, she had one year of sobriety to celebrate and the ability to sleep through the night without fear.

As a therapist, I often savor the privilege of being with people in such close ways, to assist them in their exploration to learn who they are and how they got to be the way they are. As a therapist, a counselor, people come to me with a problem to solve, a situation to resolve, a chronic emotional pain to heal. Maybe their relationships are not working the way they'd like or they are unsatisfied with the work they do. In some way or another, they don't feel whole and complete, they sense that life has more to offer, something is holding them back. Whatever the situation, they come to my therapy office wanting to make some changes, and they're willing to do their best to be as real and authentic as possible.

It's so much like watching a flower unfold, a caterpillar become a butterfly. To break out of that cocoon, the butterfly has to do a lot of work and go through a lot of struggle, pain, and suffering. But what a beautiful result! People are the same way, trying to break free of this restrictive (though protective) cocoon-coating that they find themselves in. As their therapist, they ask me to be with them as they go through the process, listen to their tales of struggle and success, offer guidance and structure to their experience, and celebrate with them their wins.

What do I actually do as a therapist? What really goes on in my office? Well, at one level, people come to visit me! That's just a delight! They come at the appointed time and we spend a designated time together. I'm there to listen and really hear what they have to say. I delve into my bag of tricks to elicit how they really feel, to teach them to listen to their own inner voice, to connect with the small child within who has suffered in one way or another. It's a joy to watch people "come into their own," to be with them over time as they learn to love and respect themselves for who they are rather than who they think they ought to be.

One of the most delightful (and challenging) aspects of my work is that people so often come in dealing with the same issues and patterns that I'm learning to deal with in my own life. My clients keep me honest! I'm not kidding when I say I might be two weeks ahead of them in learning how best to resolve one of the myriad dilemmas that life likes to pose. The best therapists are those who have learned from their own experience because the wisdom you need as a counselor doesn't only come from the books!

So, being a therapist to me means always having to take that next step in my own personal growth, to confront the next opportunity that so often presents itself as a problem. "Life is for learning," one of the old rock ballads says and, in my business you can't afford to take too much of a break. It makes for a very vibrant lifestyle, let me tell you! My wife, Linda, is also a therapist and we sometimes see couples together. It's not all that unusual for us as a couple to confront a problem, to run into a rough spot in our relationship, and then see that same problem in one of our couples a few weeks later. It's almost like we're being taught how to resolve a dilemma so we'll be able to help out one of our clients soon after

Lord you taught me...

today's lesson no. 1: when p taught me how to enlarge the doc on screen without going to "view"... there was a shortcut that i did not know!

a moment of accepting my shortcomings and embrace learning....

Lord i want to be....

Lord... teach me humility...

busy week... busy day...

sometimes i do feel that blogging helps me to summarise my thoughts... and close certain things in mind to free up space...haha... i think i need more "me" time... haha... had a little today when i was alone at home for a few hours.... slept... watched tv... bought kfc for dinner... then it was over... family came back... haha...

din go for painting class today though i planned to go and managed to step out of my house... haha... but it started to rain cats and dogs! so i think suan le... shall do make up and return home to have some "me" time! since everyone is out! hahah!

the run today was ok today.... 2 weeks din run and a long run today! wanted to stop walk at the last few km... but persevered... with the long run coming up in mind! funny ade and i... we could not find the starting point (lack of signs and we were bad at directions... and ade's iphone could not help!)... haha... so in the end we just joined the run after getting some help from one of the officials... so we missed abt 1.29km... haha.... and ran 8.71km... my timing was abt 1:05... so i think abt there lah... hehe.... but it was very hot (we started at 8 plus... too late. lah..)... haha... ade says should be a evening run... hope her headache from the heat is gone... i salute those who can under at 12pm! gosh!

next week gonna be an entire week of meeting at school... faint.... hope things will go well...

still praying for sm... Lord pls heal her....

today's progress:)

oil painting progress after 5 hours of painting!

on another note... in a recent situation... i can't help but to ask: "God, why did this happened?"...

praying for sm's healing... somehow or rather... the tragedy hit me rather hard (though not at all comparable to her sm's family, especially th...)...

not to be carried away...

been irritated with some people... trying to be more cordial and ignore them...

oil painting update!

hee... the start of my 9th oil painting!

can you see what i am painting?

my 8th painting finally completed!

zombie-fied... CAFFEINE INTOLERANCE!

jass is zombie-fied today! din even sleep a wink last night! thanks to the lemon tea i drank! cannot be due to the run lei.... though it was the furthest i ran in sembawang! 1hr 12 mins! must be the lemon tea... tried and tested many times... so i officially announce that i have CAFFEINE INTOLERANCE!

nightmares GO AWAY!

jass hates nightmares!

maybe i should not read before i sleep... but it is not scary story ah....

life at work...

work life has not been easy... especially the last week... many things involved clients, students and staff have happened...

it's tiring me... thus making me realized the importance of self-care to run the race longer... thank God i was able to complete work for the week so that i managed to rest during weekend... did 2 runs.... first was fri for 1h 04 mins.... second was this evening... same route at 1h 02 mins... haha... running helps me to calm down... and have an avenue to vent frustrations.... also clears my mind of many many... maybe too many thoughts....

the week to come would not be easy either.... but hope things will be better and that there would be reconciliations....

shall go back to oil painting soon!

my graduation piece...

There are many different journeys and moments in life. In these journeys and moments, we experience an array of feelings: anger, sadness, happiness; uncertainty, security; fearfulness, relief; disappointment, hopefulness; helplessness, confidence; irritation and comfort amongst others.

The artwork uses two key visual elements; the moon and the bridge to depict different moments in a therapeutic journey. The moon being a reflector of light is a symbolic representation of one of the roles of a therapist in a therapeutic relationship. When therapy is at work, the therapist often acts as a mirror and reflector for the client to see things in another light and make new discoveries or gain new insights. These new discoveries and insights may stir up different kinds of feelings, both positive and negative.

Having these feelings are all part of a therapeutic journey whereby both the therapist and the client work collaboratively towards a common goal. The bridge in the artwork symbolizes this collaborative journey. As the client reaches the end of the bridge with the help of the therapist, the client will be empowered to embrace what is ahead of him/her. It is also this moment in time that the client will recollect his/her journey and growth, visually represented by the moon’s reflections on the waters. The moment of looking ahead is also most promising for the client and the therapist, and it is depicted through the entirety of the artwork.

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thank you my dear friend for your good photography eyes and skills :)

hee something for yw...

a winty happy birthday for yw!

now you can hang it in your new room!

hope you like my first attempt of winty painting! hehe...

a long overdue post....

hehe... haven't been blogging since the end of the course... emotions have been everywhere since then... lots of transitions... haha... but i can now announce that i have graduated! hehe! yeah!

it's really a challenging yet fulfilling journey... that i feel no words can describe... haha... i'm an AT mah so must believe more in images! haha! opps! nah.... but seriously thank God for this miracle in my life and making my dream come true! and thank you all for all ur support and love throughout the 2 years! couldn't have done it without you guys!

a photo g took for me! my friend has good skills yeah!

i think it has got a lot of feel!

yes! jass has graduated!

maybe it can now be "a dream-come-true"!

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你的心中是否有一个属于自己的梦想？

jass wif donald duck!

a very happy moment...

also makes me miss i more... he has one that donald duck hugged him...

beautiful fireworks at HK disneyland...

dear crow and fang... see what i mean now? hehe... really less than 10% right? even the pictures i show you all now is less than 10% of what i experienced that night!

a period of transition...

haven't been blogging since i am back from hong kong and japan... dunno is it i am too nua... or there's are too many things going on my mind...

it is indeed going to be a period of transition for me...

which is also a new beginning...

though many would say it is not how you start that is impt but how you end that is impt... i still want to start well.... so hopefully i do... hehe... and definitely excited abt the journey ahead :)

haven't uploaded any photos of my trips... well below is part of both trips:) new members to the donald duck collection... hehe... i realised i simply do not have space anymore... haha...

jass' donald ducks....

can't sleep...

jass realised that she can't get to sleep after gatherings that end late in the night...

wanted to sleep and run today... but ended up eating and spending time with my friends... it was good though...

first met g after like 2 years! hehe... we are busy lah! wanted to go to black sheep cafe but it is closed! then searched for this other nice place at albert court but they only had outdoor seats and we will both melting... so not possible... our final choice was 15 minutes at LASALLE... but it seems like it is not going to appear on g's blog.... haha... oh but finally went to the cat socrates at bras besah! all thanks to g who knows the way... it is a very nice and quiet place... i wanna get a handphone pouch there... hehe... i think fang wld like to go there...

g said my moon is eerie! haha... hmmm... he still likes my last moon better... but we both agree we like t's work very much! also went around the other exhibitions... must say it is tiring to take in all at one time....

the nite was a gathering with my ex-colleagues and maybe soon-gonna-be-again colleagues again! haha... finally found time to join them... though it was a little weird since i have yet to confirm on my posting... hehe... but it was good to see everyone! this is the closer gang! and the food was supper yummy! we had like hotel-standard chocolate moose and alcoholic ice-cream and tiramisu! all home-made! yummy! and not forgetting pizza, sushi, takobachi (home-made!), honey wings and ngoh hiang (home-made too!)! it was definitely a spread! hehe....

and thank you yw, m and big birdie for your lovely pressies!

see... this explains my state of mind right now! hehe...

on a separate note... my apology to k for being so 'rude' over the phone ah... haha... was looking for something viciously when u called! sorry sorry!

long overdue post!

a lot to express.... little words to say... see the images...haha

took an image of my table (during my tiny winy break) while writing thesis!

see so many books! never anyhow write! haha!

so glad it is done! thank you God!

a bottle cl prepared for me on our last session....

full of messages cl and i wrote to remember the journey we had....

really thank God for cl....

oil painting progress!
sigh dun think i can finish with one more session....

a new cd i recently bought!
emi fujita has an angelic voice! very nice ah!
why is she coming to singapore when i am going tokyo! faintz!

haha... painting-in-progress!

very difficult sia...

gosh! haha....

a gift for cl...

2nd day after thesis...

hehe... enjoyed my second day without thesis... though still have 2 papers and 2 presentations... and one of the papers is due on tues!

went for oil painting class... tada! below is my progress... super difficult to pain portraits!

painting-in-progress: after 4 lessons...

came home after lunching with ade... wanted to start on paper... but felt really tired... so took a nap... haha...

then amazingly woke up for a run! was really debating whether to do... but finally decided to!

it's been a mth since i last ran... die lah... how to do 21km at the end of the year? haha... told myself to at least do 6km today... which i did... hehe... but but disrupted due to the sudden downpour! but thank God i was under a bridge when it started raining heavily... so did not get too drenched... so waited for a while for the rain to stop... and got to checked my emails on phone! haha... the wonder of technology... rain got smaller to a drizzle after 15 mins or so... and i got to run in the drizzle! hehe... quite fun ya... not as bad though my shoes got wet after a few steps... haha... the water on the running tar path made it look so shiny and smooth to run! and could see the reflection of trees and the sky! cool! then as i ran... the rain stopped amazingly! hehe.. i even managed to stop by the fitness corner to do my 40 sit-ups before heading home! it was a blessed run! hee!

SUBMITTED!

FINALLY! after many days of hard work... sitting in front of my overworked laptop for more than 12 hours a day... I SUBMITTED MY THESIS this afternoon at 3pm! deadline is tonight at 12 am...

there are many people i wanna thank... but have yet to sms anyone... cos straight after i submitted... i left my place to come my classmate's place to help her with APA formatting and referencing... so it is like second round ah!

but well... i wanna take this opportunity to thank God... for my mom and peace at home! hehe... mom usually plays mj at home on some days which irritates me... but for last week and this week.. it was really minimal... and for the last few days i needed total concentration... there was no mj at al!!!!! really thank God ah... of cos thank my mom for cooking nice meals for me to perk me up and my bro for his intervals of entrainment... hehe... which ade will love to be entertained too!

next i wanna thank ade and crow for checking in on me here and there.... and spurring me on.... also wanna thank l and jie for proofreading for me despite being so busy already... hope they din vomit too much blood....

fairy well done! a little gift to myself!

on another note... still have 2 more papers and thesis presentation! so still have to do! but at least... THESIS is out for now! hopefully it is not out of sight, out of mind...haha....

a very nice song....

on another note... jass is so so so so so so tired....

thesis...

"我的论文是..." 竟有如 "我的理想是..." 的那一种感觉...

虽然近几个月很辛苦... 但过程的确让我更加了解艺术疗法...

haha... wonder why chinese? think i got sick of typing in eng that i just need to see chinese characters! haha... hmm... have been diligently working on thesis since i came back from oil painting... in fact has been working on it since thesis proposal in oct 2008! then doing the actual clinical work for a year... then now the writing... been pretty intense isn't it... haha... it's really hard work! and its the last lap now! hope i survive! and survive well!!!

reading reading....

such an apt image!

now that clinical internship is over... it is really just papers!

gosh... everyday i am reading more... and having new insights to my thesis... then writes more each day! when will finish! aiyo! papers overdose!

jie and L agreed to proofread my thesis for me! hope they dun vomit blood! haha... my thesis sup is simply.... hasn't reply till now... it's so delayed till i really kind of like dun want to give a **** abt his feedback... though i know i should look at them... but he is just so.....

jass gambatei!

gambatei, gambatei, gambatei!

jass is really at the final lap of her Masters race! (haha... such a nice race name... haha... oppss...) hehe... but really... finishing in less than a mth! though exhibition is in May... i am done with my art piece! haha... so proud of myself!

so must let the adrenaline cont to rush! thesis on 16th apr, final clinical supervision paper on 20th apr and journal paper on 27th apr... then done! ok... still got that silly concept proposal for the silly male artist lecturer...hahaha... then seriously done!

jia you, jia you, jia you! focus, focus, focus!

anything.... all after this period! haha!

生命中一个小小旅程杯。。。

今天。。。 我完成了生命中一个小小旅程杯。。。

that is...

816 hours of clinical internship hours!!! yes!!!

oil painting update!

hehe... wanna guess who are the subjects?

one of i's favourite songs...

indeed i is a child of BIG faith and he is in the Lord's army!

tgif...

watched a film today... the book of eli... found it quite a nice film... though it is fictitious... eli in the story went through all odds to protect the bible... even till a point he was humiliated and supposedly would die... he did not give up his faith and trusted God... eli said faith is something you don't see but you know it... in the end he returned to the Lord with his mission completed... and he said to the Lord... i have kept my faith, fought a good fight and finished the race...

also watched another documentary about david... a boy who lived in a bubble for 12 years of his life... due to a genetic disease that caused him to need to stay germ-free to stay alive... there are also more issues discussed in the documentary that was related to medical ethics etc...

in the spirit of Good Friday and having watched these 2 productions... i am thankful for so much God has blessed me with... a healthy body and a healthy mind... food to eat... a shelter for comfort... friends to talk to... and not having to actually need to worry about survival, safety and peace...

jass needs to learn to count her blessings and have more faith...

on another note... saw the beautiful moon tonite... missing i & j... and thanking God for both their beautiful and amazing lives...yet also wishing they are still here...

a new painting!

tada! hehe!

a crazy time!

the past two weeks has been a crazy time for me... a paper every week... plus thesis second draft submission... on top of clinical work and classes.... faint... thank God i survived...

yesterday was the climax... met ying in school at 1030h to work on thesis and case study... took 2 hours to discuss with Ying to finalise on her format and mine... i thought i was ready to submit second draft first... then work on case study.... but more thoughts came in as in read.... so worked on it further.... and did not get to complete case study.... in fact only started it...

ying left before dinner to meet her editor... i went for dinner then went to c's place to help her with referencing and formatting.... that was when i did a round of proof-reading for mine and finally submitted at 2230h! i'm still looking for my editor... hmmm.... then started to work on c's thesis with c... thot will not take too long... but we only finished at 0145h! faint... she was late in submission... hope it is ok for her... her thesis sup seems like a nice person... hahaha... ask me abt mine? shall tell u next time.... haha... then we were both very hungry and 'high' by then... ok or i was the one ver 'high' as c would say... haha... thus we went for supper! dim sum at yishun! yum yum... thanks c for the nice treat! hence when i finally hit the bed after bathing... it was already 0400h! faint rite.... ya... then i woke up at 1215 just now....

simply madness... now case study to write! but my brain feels like it needs an urgent op... die...

hehe... an artwork done on 16 mar 10...

ade... it was inspired from the many (think 6!)

overhead bridges we climbed during the run!

looking at it... i also wanna ask... am i there yet?

the very question i wanna ask when writing thesis and papers!

is it done yet?

after 3 mths of work!

haha.... this is what jass does when she is having mental block from her thesis! psychoanalysis is simply killing her!
and stupid pimples go away!

oil painting...

completing soon :)

rendering...

this post is entitled rendering as it sums up how i am feeling...

seems to be very still... with many things that is work-in-progress...

the course is ending very soon... with weekly deadlines... thesis second draft in soon (first draft got bombarded by thesis supervisor)... internship ending on 5th Apr... completing oil painting piece soon... personal therapy ending end of Apr for the time being...

hmmm....

oh yeah... and 16km done! according to my watch... it was completed in 2hrs! haha.. i was really happy when i see the timing! but shall wait for the actual timing... nearly gave up and walked in the last km... but pushed myself really hard... that explains my poor leg hurt like mad yesterday and today! but this journey taught me many things... one of which... indeed it is mind over body :)

abcd's Tokyo & Mount Fuji Trip in June!

hehe... since mths ago... or last year... abcd started planning for their trip together! then there were many hiccups and obstacles and happenings... but now it is all settled! abcd got a good offer! and their japan trip together is on the way! yeah!

but for now... it is back to school... the very last part of my course... clinical internship ending in end march... research second draft due soon and final work in mid april... research presentation in end apr... and graduation exhibition in mid may... wow wow....

since cny period... i feel i haven't done much... though still did papers and presentation... and did clinical work... but somehow or rather... feels very floaty... haha...

must quickly go back to full steam school work again!

and oh gosh.... am i really starting work in Jul? faintz....

painting-in-progress

feeling the pain once again...

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when you're gone

the pieces of my heart are missing you

when you're gone

the face i came to know is missing too

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i miss you

Paloma's

symbolizes friendship and happiness

missing i and j...

it's i's birthday on 14th feb... yes he is a valentine's baby... a very special boy God has given to me... but has also taken him away...

been watching 天堂情书 on channel 8... reminded me of i and j...

missing i and j...

sometimes i still wish i can hold their hands and talk to them...

hehe... a tiny break...

finally a tiny break! good that the next deadline for me is on 23rd... so still can enjoy the new year... haha... for now i am happy that my books are back on the shelf for the time-being...

and that my table is empty!!! haha.... though still have to prepare presentation and complete a paper... i am still going to play wii and enjoy the yummy yummy food!!!! hehe....

a happy and blessed chinese new year to everyone!

新年快乐！心想事成！ 身体健康！

a run with ade!

sweet ade came to sembawang to run with me... and she took cab! faint... haha.. but i know she had a good time! having my company... running the nice park connector and park... a little adventure (which ade think i am crazy!)... and laughing at me at the end... haha...

we ran a solid distance of 5.3km... based on ade's iphone... then walk and run for another 2 plus km... not too bad... esp for ade... havent run for a mth! hehe... fang and crow! we miss you both! come join us! hehe.... we tried out new roads too... literally new cos they just built it! before it was mangrove swamp! and ade being a math student... mistaken mangrove for mangoes! haha! that's where we had a little adventure... cos we discovered that the new road does not lead to the park! though we were just next to it! haha... blocked by this 1m high metal fence... then ade suggested climbing over! haha.. despite my long legs... we failed miserably... and a chinese couple saw what we were tying to do... and they were simply amazed by us... haha.. they told us to walk to the entrance to get in... which we did lah... on grass that ade kept saying got holes! but dun have! haha.... then thot the adventure over rite... no lor... cos then we went to coffeeshop to have dinner... then discovered that the 10 bucks i have was gone! haha... think i dropped it when i took my phone out of the arm pouch... we tried to find it... but couldn't... and i also dunno where i dropped! haha.. so poor ade... hunderd plus became ice water... and my coffeeshop dinner became maggie me... haha.... but beyond all these! we had fun! hehe...

on another note... i handed my thesis first draft on fri noon... 16,000 plus words! madness! then just completed a 5-page paper due on tues.... and next deadline is 20 feb... so rather relaxed now... enjoying the free-from-assignments-for-a-while mind! hehe...

a moment...

我爱你... 爱着你... 就像老鼠爱大米...

收音播着一首熟悉的歌... 让我想起了i 和j...

in fact the thesis was inspired by them...

想念与思念着...

am i going to make it?

glad i went for a run yesterday in the midst of doing thesis.... it's been a long time since i ran 8km... have been stopping at 5km or 6km... so what is the motivation behind yesterday's run? other than getting rid of some fats... it's cos of 16km run coming up.... faint... 8km more to go... that will be 2hrs?

btw... thesis draft 1 is still not done... faintz...

drowning in thesis...

faintz... my brain is really almost dead... since sch started i have had many days and nights (though not the entire day or night) staring at my thesis... rewriting, editing, strengthening, adding... which i am still at the beginning and yet to get to the main meaty part!!! furthermore... there are still the other papers and presentations!!! faint!

especially today... and in fact last thurs as well... it's almost 10 hours in front of my lappie with many books and notes on my table... faint...

i'm seriously going to be braindead soon... and the deadline is on 5th feb! seriously seriously fainting... think my body is first to detect the stress by letting pimples appear on my face! SILLY PIMPLES GO AWAY AND NEVER COME BACK! sigh... really gonna say bye bye to the 2 gatherings cum bday celebrations this weekend...

constant look of a part of my table since school started...

i am not working hard enough...

ah! i am so going to....

first draft of thesis is due on 5th feb! and i am still not working hard enough! been feeling tired and lethargic... faintz....

completed process notes 1... working on the second one... much is happening at clinical placement... but...

i am still not progressing fast enough!

life to be for the next 3.5 mths...

school - clinical placement - papers - thesis - personal therapy

oil painting update!

progress-thus-far... hehe...

only 3.5 more mths to go...

as the title of this entry suggests... yeah only 3.5 more mths to go before i would complete the course... end my life as a student... and as a training AT (not that i will stop learning after that... in fact gonna continue)... but yeah... it is the completion of this phase on my life... in other words... it is also 2.5 more mths of work with clients in clinical internship....

sessions with clients which started this week have been very intense and powerful... guess i was not totally prepared for it... but i tried my best and i think i did well... i wonder if that is how cl also feels when i go and see her each week... esp the weeks when the issues were harder to process....

i also wonder if it was the air at the internship place that is too dusty for me... i fell sick straight after the first day of work there... then dong thru and went to school on tues... then dong thru and went for the second day of clinical work on wed... which i'm glad i did... but after that my body collapsed too... slept straight from 7pm-10am after taking medicine... my body needed that long to fight the virus.... though the fever did come back for a little while on thurs... the good thing is.... i am ok now... hehe....

entering this entry from the NLB study lounge... crow we must come together! hehe.... completed my first process notes assignment... started on the second which is due next next week... then put in the things (not all yet) i have for thesis in a single document... page count stopped at 31 pages.... first draft is due beginning feb... wonder what am i going to do! faint...

on a not so related mode... i saw a lady here.... i think she is rushing some proposal or work related stuff... such a workaholic.... dun even have time for lunch! and she looked damn tired! to my friends who are very busy at work... i know u are.... PLEASE REMEMBER TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF TOO!

starting again...

started my final clinical internship today... my heart feels very heavy.... not too sure why but probably due to one of the cases... really not sure how i can help... (taking time to digest too...)

the bulk of last week was spent at an international conference... it was an eye opener... i feel so small amidst all the international and local delegates... realised that indeed my journey has just begun...

new year RESOLUTION...

jass' new year resloution: don't lose any of her things...

cos she just lost her mp3 player today after losing her phone recently...

shit!

an overdue post...

an overdue post... hehe... cos it's about 2010 resolutions! opppss... which i have not thought about yet... haha...

holidays are gone in a flash! faint... there are things that i wanted to do but have not done... things i have successfully completed... let's summarise a little... haha...

• worked at *** (first on the list cos it took up most of my time)... the good thing is it contributed to the BACKPACK JAPAN FUND with abc! hehe...
• ran and painted almost every week.... almost... haha... started on new painting for graduation show... a run coming up in Feb! all work in progress!
• went for a short break and shopping spree at KL!
• read a book but have not finished...
• DIY-ed pressies for my dear advisers and abc... and got other pressies for impt ppl...
• attended Christmas with abc and celebrated Christmas and crow's bday where abcd are all present!
• stayed at home to watched tv on new year's eve! haha... finished some overdue dramas too!
• celebrated honey's bday with where all advisers are all present!
• packed my room (always packing i realised... haha)
• confirmed final clinical internship placement

think that is all... but what have i not done? i have not done solid school work! THESIS! i am so dead... sigh...

on another note... oil painting progress below... hehe...

Stage 2: blackness... depressing yeah... hehe....

Stage 3: finally some light!!!

what about 2010 resolutions? hmmm... i think i do not have them because 2010 will be a very transitional year for me... a big part is to complete the course and transit into the new career... hopefully will be smooth-sailing! haha... then the other big part is japan backpack with abc... though we also thot of a service trip...haha... that pretty much cover 2010... and of cos in the midst injected with runs and art.... so do i still need resolutions? hmmm...

something small for my dear friends...

During the gathering...

wen: (opening the present) what is this ah?

me: you see lah....

wen: (focusing on the back of the canvas) oh i know! photo frame!

me: ... (fainting)

wen: but hor... if put pic liao... how to see the pic? you bought wrongly ah??

me: ... (seriously fainting)

yun: eh you bought it ah? what is this ah? if buy one no sincerity leh...

jia: (finally opened the present) no lah! she paint one!

wen: (finally) oh not a photo frame! it's for hanging one! a painting lah! (pointed to a painting on the wall of the place we were in)

me: ... (wanna cry liao) ...

disclaimer: i may have forgotten who say what... but this is what i remembered! haha...

such are jass' 5 lovely advisers... haha...

jass to honey, jia, hui, yun and wen: 在新的2010里, 你们都要很幸福哦！