finally a post!

finally a post after so long! jass has been busy and tired the last few weeks! i started posting but never completed them... haha... perhaps the mind is clearer after insanity workout followed by gym yesterday! thanks crow for recommending insanity... it was really insane and intense! worse than running 10km! haha... but i still did 2.4km within 15 mins after that! so am i insane too? hehe....

a teachers' day present by ian's mom...ian and jon has always been my greatest blessings! misses both more after i visited them... it has become a yearly's affair....

on another note.... a summary of my previous unposted post... 己所不欲，勿施于人。。。 要别人对你好，自己得先要对别人好。。。 心情坏的时候，为何不让心情去放个假，免得让自己说出将来会后悔的话，伤了别人也伤了自己。。。 说出去的话就象泼出去的水，想收也收不会了。。。

upcoming run!

last year's 21km was a test of physical and mental strength... was quite happy at my results... next week is the 25km run! and the aim is 3hrs! can i make it? i don't know... weather has been hot and i only ran 1hr 10 mins today! hopefully with the water points... i can perform better!

i am finally getting there:)

finally not so far away from completion!

the week has been busy with many other things that have happened...

grandma is still in hospital.... thank God for the successful op and the good recovery so far... hope that grandma will be strengthened with the therapy to come...

something very sad has happened... God pls be with y and her family... i really do not understand why this happened... but Lord you know... so pls comfort the family and be with them through this extremely difficult time...

sigh....

with all these happening... i felt tired emotionally and physically today... decided to go for a short run... it has to be short cos i have not been running for weeks! managed to do 5km today... short but a good start.. remembered i started with 1km years ago... and built up to my 21km last year... so not too bad to start with 5km...hopefully building up to 25km this year...

things to do in 2011...

yet to pen down my resolutions for 2011.... procrastinating... hehe....

what runs should i do in 2011? passion run? 2xu run? sundown marathon? yellow ribbon run? stand chart marathon? (i have not been running for 2 weeks!!!)

one thing i know.... i have many books to read in 2011! and the list is piling!

and work is piling too! faintz!

a privilege to run...

just read a post on mrbrown abt 4-year-old Jerry who crawled his way to the finishing line of the kids' 750m race at sc run... Jerry has spina bifida, a spinal defect which causes his lower body to be especially weak... but he rose up to the challenge and did it becos God told him to crawl!

reminded me of one of the things i thought of during the run... to be specific... it was when i was abt to give up running and succumb to walking before the 16km-mark (my aim was to at least run 16-km without stopping, except for the few steps at the water points)... at that point... sm came to my mind... and i rem telling God that if i were to persevere and continue running... He will then heal sm faster...

though training is tough... and sometimes i lose the momentum to run regularly... i think that to be able to run is a privilege... in fact to be healthy is the greatest blessing... sm's accident has hit me quite badly when i first heard it... and i was fearful of running for a while... but i also witnessed how the Lord pulled her through and His miracles in her life throughout this difficult period....

though i do not know sm prior to the unfortunate accident... my hear went out to her and has prayed very hard for her healing...

sm... jia you! we are still praying for you! you will be able to run again! AMEN!

eh serious?!

rank: 869 of?

21 km and 2 days of muscle ache!

jass did it in 2hrs48mins01secs! not bad lah....

though slower than my aim by 3mins01secs!

busy week... busy day...

sometimes i do feel that blogging helps me to summarise my thoughts... and close certain things in mind to free up space...haha... i think i need more "me" time... haha... had a little today when i was alone at home for a few hours.... slept... watched tv... bought kfc for dinner... then it was over... family came back... haha...

din go for painting class today though i planned to go and managed to step out of my house... haha... but it started to rain cats and dogs! so i think suan le... shall do make up and return home to have some "me" time! since everyone is out! hahah!

the run today was ok today.... 2 weeks din run and a long run today! wanted to stop walk at the last few km... but persevered... with the long run coming up in mind! funny ade and i... we could not find the starting point (lack of signs and we were bad at directions... and ade's iphone could not help!)... haha... so in the end we just joined the run after getting some help from one of the officials... so we missed abt 1.29km... haha.... and ran 8.71km... my timing was abt 1:05... so i think abt there lah... hehe.... but it was very hot (we started at 8 plus... too late. lah..)... haha... ade says should be a evening run... hope her headache from the heat is gone... i salute those who can under at 12pm! gosh!

next week gonna be an entire week of meeting at school... faint.... hope things will go well...

still praying for sm... Lord pls heal her....

life at work...

work life has not been easy... especially the last week... many things involved clients, students and staff have happened...

it's tiring me... thus making me realized the importance of self-care to run the race longer... thank God i was able to complete work for the week so that i managed to rest during weekend... did 2 runs.... first was fri for 1h 04 mins.... second was this evening... same route at 1h 02 mins... haha... running helps me to calm down... and have an avenue to vent frustrations.... also clears my mind of many many... maybe too many thoughts....

the week to come would not be easy either.... but hope things will be better and that there would be reconciliations....

shall go back to oil painting soon!

2nd day after thesis...

hehe... enjoyed my second day without thesis... though still have 2 papers and 2 presentations... and one of the papers is due on tues!

went for oil painting class... tada! below is my progress... super difficult to pain portraits!

painting-in-progress: after 4 lessons...

came home after lunching with ade... wanted to start on paper... but felt really tired... so took a nap... haha...

then amazingly woke up for a run! was really debating whether to do... but finally decided to!

it's been a mth since i last ran... die lah... how to do 21km at the end of the year? haha... told myself to at least do 6km today... which i did... hehe... but but disrupted due to the sudden downpour! but thank God i was under a bridge when it started raining heavily... so did not get too drenched... so waited for a while for the rain to stop... and got to checked my emails on phone! haha... the wonder of technology... rain got smaller to a drizzle after 15 mins or so... and i got to run in the drizzle! hehe... quite fun ya... not as bad though my shoes got wet after a few steps... haha... the water on the running tar path made it look so shiny and smooth to run! and could see the reflection of trees and the sky! cool! then as i ran... the rain stopped amazingly! hehe.. i even managed to stop by the fitness corner to do my 40 sit-ups before heading home! it was a blessed run! hee!

rendering...

this post is entitled rendering as it sums up how i am feeling...

seems to be very still... with many things that is work-in-progress...

the course is ending very soon... with weekly deadlines... thesis second draft in soon (first draft got bombarded by thesis supervisor)... internship ending on 5th Apr... completing oil painting piece soon... personal therapy ending end of Apr for the time being...

hmmm....

oh yeah... and 16km done! according to my watch... it was completed in 2hrs! haha.. i was really happy when i see the timing! but shall wait for the actual timing... nearly gave up and walked in the last km... but pushed myself really hard... that explains my poor leg hurt like mad yesterday and today! but this journey taught me many things... one of which... indeed it is mind over body :)

a run with ade!

sweet ade came to sembawang to run with me... and she took cab! faint... haha.. but i know she had a good time! having my company... running the nice park connector and park... a little adventure (which ade think i am crazy!)... and laughing at me at the end... haha...

we ran a solid distance of 5.3km... based on ade's iphone... then walk and run for another 2 plus km... not too bad... esp for ade... havent run for a mth! hehe... fang and crow! we miss you both! come join us! hehe.... we tried out new roads too... literally new cos they just built it! before it was mangrove swamp! and ade being a math student... mistaken mangrove for mangoes! haha! that's where we had a little adventure... cos we discovered that the new road does not lead to the park! though we were just next to it! haha... blocked by this 1m high metal fence... then ade suggested climbing over! haha.. despite my long legs... we failed miserably... and a chinese couple saw what we were tying to do... and they were simply amazed by us... haha.. they told us to walk to the entrance to get in... which we did lah... on grass that ade kept saying got holes! but dun have! haha.... then thot the adventure over rite... no lor... cos then we went to coffeeshop to have dinner... then discovered that the 10 bucks i have was gone! haha... think i dropped it when i took my phone out of the arm pouch... we tried to find it... but couldn't... and i also dunno where i dropped! haha.. so poor ade... hunderd plus became ice water... and my coffeeshop dinner became maggie me... haha.... but beyond all these! we had fun! hehe...

on another note... i handed my thesis first draft on fri noon... 16,000 plus words! madness! then just completed a 5-page paper due on tues.... and next deadline is 20 feb... so rather relaxed now... enjoying the free-from-assignments-for-a-while mind! hehe...

am i going to make it?

glad i went for a run yesterday in the midst of doing thesis.... it's been a long time since i ran 8km... have been stopping at 5km or 6km... so what is the motivation behind yesterday's run? other than getting rid of some fats... it's cos of 16km run coming up.... faint... 8km more to go... that will be 2hrs?

btw... thesis draft 1 is still not done... faintz...

paint and run...

run for today: 8km in 1h 06 mins :) nearly died ah... 20 rounds around the park... saw so ppl came and go... while i just kept on running! nearly gave up at the 19th round... glad i pushed myself...

went to the fitness corner to do sit-ups and cool down exercises... i lied down on my back and right above me in the sky was today's moon... it was not full moon but beautiful... looking at it... thinking of my problems... the somehow became smaller... and the thought of indeed 世界真的很大 came to me...

tonight's moon... (but image is from web... haha)

oil painting class was good today... tried to get the colours myself :) failed the first time then got it the second time... not too bad...

painting-in-progress

the dreams last night were terrible... i woke up screaming... feeling angry... even when i have woken up... i refused to get off my bed... i was forcing myself to sleep more.... glad i went for painting and run... it did make me feel better... sometimes running is like running away all the problems you have... and after the run... u gain some strength to help u get by... while painting soothes my heart... and helps my mind to focus... to slow down...

i fell...

i went jogging today... was battling whether to go or not to go... in the end i did...

but barely jogged 3km and i fell! sigh... was not a bad fall... suffered some superficial wounds on the palm... had water... so could wash... but no tissue and plaster... so used my shirt to stop the blood...hehe...

well then ended up walking most of the journey back... except jogged another 1km when i felt the walking would take too long... at that time i felt so tired... so vulnerable... emotionally, physically and spiritually all down.... what an experience...

really dun like to fall down...

today's record!

ran at the park today.... so could check exact distance....

i ran 8km in 1 hr 03 mins! hehe... 10km here i come! building up!

最美丽的夕阳。。。

人最大的敌人是自己。。。 今天我又种输给了自己的感觉。。。

today's run was 6.8km at 50 minutes! wanna faint liao... like slower liao... i din want to do more rounds... wanted to maintain the distance for this week.. to try to be faster... but instead i got so much slower... aiyo...

其实是没什么大不了的。。and i should just enjoy the entire process... 可是人就是如此。。。 永远想做得更好。。。 突破自己的极限。。。 因为这好胜的心而被冲昏了头。。。我就是如此。。。 但还好。。。 正当我感到失意的时候。。。 我看到了最美丽的夕阳。。。 让我有所领悟。。。

indeed... it was one of the most beautiful sunset i have ever seen! and right in front of my eyes at sembawang! cool ya!

a cup can be half full or half empty... the Lord reminded me to look at the half full :)

when i started running at the park... i started with just 2 rounds after running from my place to the park... and now... i can run 15 runs! what an accomplishment ya! hehe...

so at the end of the day... i learnt... "it is ok! dun give up! just keep running and i will get there!" hee...

something good... a new record :)

hee... thank you yw and ry for reading my blog and asking me how am i...

shall not blog abt anything not too good today...

hee.... this week is the second week i ran 3 times a week! hehe... today's record is 6.6km in 43 mins... not too fast ya... but nonetheless... it is a new record in distance! hee... GE 10km here i come! hehe... thanks crow for asking me to try! hehe...

wore this today... quite good...did not feel any strain on my knee...hehe....

and not forgetting my ipod nano in my arm wallet! hehe... got it cheaper in KL! yeah!

it's really good!

was feeling pissed by my mom when i came home....

so went for a jog... did my 4.8 km of jogging again! the first was done yesterday! nearly gave up halfway but pressed on... it's really mind over body...

during the time spent at the park after the jog... the Lord reminded of His goodness and that calmed me a little... it's really how i will choose to look at things that matters... though i very much still dun like it...

the day ended on a good note! cos of e scholarship! what more can i ask for! the amt of scholarship is more than what i expected while the period of bond is shorter! haha! God is good!

hmmm....

hehe into the 6th week of my holiday! haha! so fast... esp when i am seriously not doing much

time to buck up!

hehe... the most i have done for this week is having jogged twice! mon n wed! hehe... jogging is good! feels healthier...haha... jogged abt 3.6km on mon + 40 sit-ups + other exercises... hehe... and abt 4km on wed + 40 sit-ups + other exercises... haha the distance is really not far... but i am progressing! hehe... one day i will reach my 10km! hehe... jia you jass! must cont the spirit and discipline!

snoopy is healthy too! hehe!

been thinking abt something else too... dun really know how to handle...

on a side note... perhaps it's time to revisit the checklist i had at the beginning of hols! hehe!