a blessed christmas my dear friends...

 a hand-made card :)

 so that you know which one is yours :)

tiramisu-by-jass in a jar :)



recent images...

 casper... according to s... an impt symbol to me...
it just reminds me of my earlier days...

 p will understand what this is? hehe...

 listening and reflecting on a journey of the heart...

 a close-up...

 a different feel...

 focusing on the spirit within me...

 part of each other...

 an amazing experience...

see another look?

how i wish...

this can happen rite?

(even when i am not an astronaut...)

sigh...

It was the last paper yesterday!

 

Yes I was happy… ‘cos it means I need not do any assignment or exam paper again! Heee! Was so happy until I couldn’t sleep lah! There are just so many other things I wanna do… in fact it was easy for me to jump to the next thing I have on the list quickly… but I told myself to slow down…

 

Back to work today… there are many things to do… many challenges… that right now they made me wanna run away…

 

Yes I am affected by what I heard from a dear colleague turned friend… though we are busy and don’t get to meet for makan or gai gai after work… there is this connection that is linking us for the past many years we worked together or simply being around… when I heard her asked me “where is the grace?”… I was dumbfounded… yes I had no answer for her… somehow I feel that whatever I say it’s going to be excuses I make up for others and myself… tears then welled up in my eyes…

 

The heart is saddened…

nose nose... pls stop dripping!!!

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4 more days to go...

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but why does it seems forever???

AMEN!

thank you Lord for protecting my dear friend... please continue to heal her! AMEN!

can you spot the mistake?

a quick funny post!

hehe yet another ex-student use this term as my name! hehehe.... can't believe and wanna vomit? but it still made my day! haha!

part of project A.R.T of SPED Conference 2012

Finally e event is over!

台上一分钟，台下十年功。。。 我再一次体会到。。。

comfort lunch...

2nd treatment... more zambuk!

1st treatment.. Worse?

Sigh...

My clumsiness and busy-ness caused this big bruise at my knee today! Thot it was supposed to be a better day... Will tmr be?

a comforting rain on fri evening...

had a tiring day at work on fri... not the work with the students but other work in the school... and was rushing through the day with many things to do... guess i was also tired and did not start the day feeling positive...

usually i only like the rain when i am at home comfortably in bed... but i really appreciated the rain on fri evening... it sort of comforted my heart...

had a nice evening then meeting p for a movie... BATMAN! hehe... not a dc comics fan... p is... but still i enjoyed the movie... nice twists just a little violent at the neck breaking parts! p laughed at me and asked if i knew they actually use the breaking of certain vegetables to create the sound effect... i don't... yeah he was trying to help but i was too visual... haha... too imaginative...

but on the whole it is nice... to know there is a hero out there... hee... or many heroes from dc.. hehe... sometimes somewhere somehow, we all need a hero in our hearts...

a bad day!

Because you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

an insight...

what do you do when someone tells you he or she is ugly in every way? of 'cos I wanna tell the person that it cannot be true... but is what I think of the person so important? probably not... sometimes it is more helpful to be able to hold and contain what the person says without feeling overwhelmed but at the same time emphatic about what the person had experienced...

a real change is a change from the inside...

for 猴脑... hehe:)

Why do I feel this way?

I know that I do not need your affirmation.. But why do I feel so angry when I saw what you commented? It gonna be my own issue right? Sigh!

a sweet memory :)

have you created this kind of books when you were in primary school? saw these books featured in a tv programme today and brought back my memories! i painstakingly created several books with pull out tabs for reading projects in primary school! if i remember correctly, the elements in the book can move as you pull the tabs! gosh furthermore all hand drawn since i did not have any computer at home then... should have kept the books! faintz!

attachment...

The last four days of attending a course on attachment focused therapy have been an enriching, high impact, useful, meaningful, hopeful yet heart wrenching at times.

The essential needs of human existence starting from being an infant to a young child: being safe, being loved, being held, being cared, being regulated. Yet these are far-fetching for some children. Their experiences tell them that the world is unsafe for them hence they need to fight to survive; tell them that they are not good enough to be loved; tell them that to get attention means to make adults scream at them; tell them that they can never find someone to love them and to love forever; tell them that they are bad and unworthy to be loved.

Attachment focused therapy help these children to reattach to their main caregivers, be it mom, dad, foster mom, foster dad, main caregiver in a home. An important point i have missed, at the same time found it hard to work with is the fact that the involvement of the "natural" attachment figure is pivotal in the treatment (other than the use of myself that i use all the time). In fact, parental commitment (birth, foster or surrogate) is the most accurate predictor to the success of attachment therapy as pointed by Dr Arthur's model of dyadic developmental psychotherapy. This is something s and i hope to integrate into our school setting to help our students more effectively. We are beginning with a case in mind.

There were many points that Dr Arthur taught which i hope that all professionals working with children in this area can bear in mind 'cos they are so important... in fact i think they apply to all professionals working with children...

(MOST IMPORTANT AND DEFINITELY TRUE) it is about connection and not compliance... with connection comes compliance...

don't SHOUT at a child... think about what you are communicating when you do that... regulate yourself to regulate the child...

intervene the causes and not symptoms of behaviours... the way to handle a child's tantrum is to intervene before the child gets to that sate of dysregulation...

work at maintaining PACE in therapy... Playful, Accepting, Curious and Empathy...

the power of holding a child in loving, regulating and comforting way...

be brave to apologize to the child when we adults are wrong...

a child always yearn for parents' love no matter what their parents did to them...

work at a child's developmental instead of chronological age...

the importance of building and maintaining an alliance while working with a child in therapy and all...

always treat using "first things first"... so what the child is slouching on the couch of walking around the room... so long as they are engaged with you...

remember that children are always watching what we adults do...and they learn.... good or bad...

i hope that i will always remember these principles... even if it is the most difficult child to work with... it is hardly the child's fault... and there must always be something positive to hold on to... till we experience more...

disclaimer: however it does not mean i will not be tired... i will if i am truly working hard alongside the children and teens i see... i just need to rest to start again:)

missing ian and jon...

it's nearing ian's anniversary again... i tend to miss these two little ones more during this time... and remembering the joy and blessings they brought into my life cause my eyes to turn teary... actually they are not very little lah... but just that they remained little in my hearts...

today s said that when we all meet in heaven again... we do not retain the worldly relationships but all become brothers and sisters... but we are both not sure if we will still remember our worldly relationships... maybe not... but that means i get to call ian and jon my brothers? yeah my little brothers...

on the other hand... it means we must treasure our current relationships... cos they just happen once...

a new blog skin :)

hehe here's my new blog skin that i spent some time doing last night... including the small pictures at the title area was challenging... Google helped!

why the new blog skin? hmmm... i think it gonna be a new beginning after Oct 2012! hehe... jass wanna enjoy the little things in life :)

think i learned to slow down a lot in the work i do with the children i see in therapy... sometimes they get rushed so much that all it takes to help is to slow down...

hence i wanna apply that to my life as well... slow down to go further... slow down to not sweat over the small stuff... kapok from ade: carpe diem meaning seize the moment:)

:)

hmmm...

what he said came as a surprise... but it left me pondering as well...

what jass wanted yesterday :p

i want no more...

working with such is stifling and pointless...

word : lethargic

a gift for our dear friend...

till i needed to do art...

if it is already hard for me... how much so for my students...

Sandplay & Symbol Work Training

tuning in to the body...

feelings...

working with dreams...

a closer look...

the self...

my take-away...

wake up jass!

whenever i do the word superiority lab report assignment!

i'll move on...

This road that I'm taking twists and turns

My life my chance turning dreams into reality.

Down this path faced with so many things

Sometimes I feel like giving up and turn away

Can't seem to go on

And I've been thru' this before

Now where am I?

Where do I stand?
A little lost here.
But I'll remember.
All those times you've bought me thru'.
I'd be a fool to give up cos' the goal is near

I'll move on I'll go on.
Lord I will take your hand.
And you will guide me along.
Survive thru' this storm.
So I say, come what may.
I'll hold on to my hope.
Yes, I will walk down this road.
And my passion drive will lead me on

Here I am Once again caught in the rain.
Looking back I've come so far And I want to carry on
Take a step at time
It's alright.
Even thru' this rain, I want to smile again

Don't hold back now.
And i've been thru' this before.
Now where am I?
Where do I stand?
A little lost here.
But I'll remember.
All those times you've bought me thru'.
I can feel the sun shining down on me

Here I am, Here I am.
Lord I will take your hand.
And you will guide me along.
Survive thru' this storm.
So I say, come what may.
I'll hold on to my hope.
Yes, I will walk down this road.
And my passion drive will lead me on.

supercat 来了！

Image from http://melcherillustration.blogspot.com/2009/04/super-cat-is-super.html

i think so too...

wish...

真希望有人能帮我解决一切的难题。。。

if...

如果能从来一次。。。 would i have made the same decision?

post-long-weekend-syndrome!

bleah!

saddened...

something happened in office today... or should i say happened again? and it really saddened my heart... it just bothers me... i hope what i hate to go to is incorrect... i hope it will not happen again...

boo hoo!

last day of sanity tmr as course is starting again on Fri! may i survive and do well! end-october quick come!

happyducky@ malacca :)

when is everyone coming back?

can you find happyducky?

the world's most innocent eyes!