went to the Good News Service at indoor stadium with crow and fang today... i am really glad i went in the end... God is indeed good...
was doing my paper before i went... which i finished one paper! hehe.. but i was hesitant to go when it started to rain... and was really heavily... nevertheless crow called and i decided to go bathe and hope for the rain to stop... and it did! just before i was ready to leave the house... hehe... i was really happy! then then... as i walked and reached the bus stop to take the shuttle bus... it started to rain again! hehe... God really knew i needed the encouragement to go...
the journey to the stadium was peaceful and shiok... i had the seat to myself.. it was not crowded.. i managed to read my readings on the bus and just rest... and just when i thot if i wld be too early before crow and fang reached... crow called me to say they reached le! hehe...
what i am going to blog next is even more amazing... and it is abt little thaddeus...
we got there... settled down comfortably... then as i was reading... a little boy sat beside me after swapping his seat with his father... at first i thot he is a girl girl ah... because of his hairstyle i think... he is very friendly... the first question he asked me was "am i jie jie"... haha of cos i say yes! glad that he never ask if i am aunty...haha... yup then he started to talk to me... wanna take off my watch... hehe... then his father changed his seat with him again... he was worried that he wld disturb me... at that moment... i turned to crow and said that i think the child has special needs...
crow's reaction was wow... i mean there were like 16,000 people in the stadium and i can meet a child with special needs! but he is not just a child with special needs....
i picked up the courage to talked to the father and found out that little thaddeus is 3 and a half years old and he has epilepsy...
i was truly amazed... in fact i am still now... i wanted to tell crow that little thaddeus reminded me of Jon before i spoke to the father... and indeed God planned for me to meet little thaddeus today...
crow is right... i dun need anything else from the service today.... though the message was really powerful... little thaddeus was enough for me....
the moments with little thaddues throughout the 3 hours were beyond words... crow was right... i was able to connect with him almost immediately... he held my hands... gave me a hug and showed me so many things... the parents have named him thaddeus which in hebrew means gift from God... indeed he is God's gift to me too... my nick on msn has been "doing the puzzle reminded me of Jon"... and i have been missing him... and God knows... and He knows much more than that...
i told crow after that one of the regrets i had when Jon left us was not holding his hands and hugging him enough... if only i knew... and there today thaddeus told his mummy that he wants to sit with me... this stranger jie jie.. and he wants to give me a hug! holding his body... feeling his warmth... it's the greatest gift the Lord has for me today... not mentioning the times i held his little hand in mine.... i teared at that moment and thank God from the bottom of my heart that he provided this opportunity for me...
the interaction between thaddues and his mommy and papa also showed me alot... i pray earnestly that the Lord will bless this family... the way thaddeus' mommy and papa talked to him is really uplifting... they did not underestimate his ability and intelligence due to his illness... and they taught him abt God's love and even the Holy Spirit.. i mean he is only 3 and a half years old! i admire their unconditional love for him... it is really not easy for them... caring for a child who has all the extra energy 24/7.... i saw the father teared today... knowing that he is praying for God'd healing to come upon thaddeus... i prayed for that too... but i do noe that the Lord has plans for thaddeus... may the Lord watch over this family and bless the parents with more love and strength each day as they give so much to little thaddeus...
for the longest time i felt i have lost the passion to work with children... it's like an irony.. cos i still chose to work with them... but deep down i know there has been a difference... meeting little thaddeus rekindled the love for children today... and the first love i have received from the Lord... this is the miracle for me today....
little thaddeus... jie jie jassica will always remember your name... your smile... and would be praying for you though i am not sure if we would meet again... i play that u will know that God love you so much... i pray too that you will grow up to be a strong, healthy and happy boy... thank you for blessing me today... i will also remember the ball i made for you... the way you say amen and jesus... so loud and clear... and the hi-5 you gave me as well as the number 3 sign.... and questions u asked me... helped me put my watch in place... the way you asked if i like you and said u like me... and the way u tried to listen to the sermon.... your warmth... your precious hug... your little hand....there is just so much so much...
God is really amazing.... and like of the songs we sang today that... can't rem the exact lyrics... but it was abt the Lord loving me no matter what i have done... btw... the songs sang are really nice... simple yet powerful...
God... thank You for everything in have done for me today.... and everyday of my life... thank you for giving me the chance to meet little thaddeus today... as a form of closure... as i rem Jon...
thank You for this miracle... it's really beyond words...
this week would be my last week with the children clients i have been seeing... hmmm... a lot of thoughts... saying goodbyes is always difficult... especially when i wont actually feel it till it really comes...
