Flush Toy Episode #1

hehe... i came home last fri and decided that i should give away some of my flush toys... haha... dun ask me why... just a sudden rash decision... haha... so i started packing... haha... and not bad... i came up with a big bag of "going to give away" flush toys and another small bag of "stay with me" flush toys... haha... but sigh... the new resolution did not last long... haha... cos i started to have the 不舍得 feeling... haha... so i took out more and more bears from the big bag! and in the end... i have a small bag of "going to give away" flush toys and a big bag of "stay with me" flush toys... haha... thanks to all my friends who ask me to keep them! haha... msn nick i good! haha....

that night... i also took a pic of all my flush toys! hehe... and as ry and qp has said... each of them tells a story! something precious in my life! hehe... so here it is! i gonna start to have blog episodes of my flush toys alone! haha... am i crazy or what...hehe

so here's Flush Toy Episode #1!

introducing you to you my precious 雪儿! hehe... this was a christmas gift from my mum! i think at age 9 or 10! hehe... i still remember that my mum came home with two pressies that night! one big and one small! haha... my sis took the big one! (which was a bad choce... haha)... and so i took the small one... and the small one turns out to be better!

haha there were many times my sis and i fought over 雪儿! hehe... and if i dun remember wrongly... there was once we fought so fiercely that grandma was very angry with us and threatened to throw 雪儿 down the rubbish chute! haha... i dun remember if she did eventually... haha... even if she did... 雪儿 is still clean as snow! after all the washes all these years! haha... washing my flush toys is a yearly thing for my mum to do... haha... opps... of cos she complains that i grow up le still act like a kid... but the amazing thing is when i wanted to give them away last friday... she said "huh all so cute, why do u want to give them away?" haha... my confused mum... haha...

fear of speaking to people... faint...

aiyo after so many years as a teacher... i still have this fear... unbelievable rite? sigh... but really man... especially while speaking to people at a professional level... aiyo... faint lah... how ah?

sigh... guess i really need to work on this... really not good... always feel so worried after this kind of meeting... what if i left a bad first impression what if i have acted stupid? what if... what if... what if... so many things to worry about ah...

sigh... how???

haha... i hereby delcare my painting done! haha... except...

haha... except what.... some touch up still and the side of the canvas.... but another day lah... haha... hehe... think nearly 6mths! though i took some break in between... hehe.... man... it is really an endurance race! hehe...

hehe... finally...

hehe... didn't have time to blog for the entire week... was working part time at the research company... OT almost everyday ah! 12 hours in front of com! wow! man... office job really not for me... hehe... not long term... hehe... but it's a good way to earn some extra cash for this holiday season... my savings is seriously depreciating... hehe...

tada! here's the latest development of my oil painting! hehe! 99% covered with paint! but still not finished! haha... i don't care! must finish tmr or i wll self declare it is finished... haha... tmr there is a mini exhibition cum competition at the cc... the residents will vote for their favourite painting and the artist will win a token... quite fun rite...hehe... i'm entering this piece for the competition... lazy to bring the rest... haha... i have entitled this piece "Yes, I Love You"... haha... fang gave me a good suggestion too! to entitle it "Joy"... hehe...

was packing my table the other time after the first sem... second sem is going to be rather hectic and demanding... hehe... while packing... i shifted my AT books to put them together.... used to be all the other books! and see what i have! tada! haha... i love my books! but not while trying to finish reading them to write my papers though...haha....

that's all from me for now.... hehe... the next blog i shall blog abt my dresses! haha! Yes i started to buy dresses and not my usual clothes! haha! a new resolution for 2009! wah! but come with a cost man! they are not cheap! esp the one bought yesterday! hehe... but i like them! haha... my friends, i'm sure u all are glad that i'm wearing dresses! haha... but they are not for dating! haha.. their are for my new AT beginning! hehe...

hee... a worthwhile trip to borders fair!

hee... tada! these are the books i bought for myself! wanted to just get AT related books... but haha... the deals are too good so i got others! hehe... they are all 2 bucks each! super happy and satisfied! borders fair is good! haha... worthwhile to wake up so early and brace the rain to get to expo! hee! on another trip to borders just on last sat... i saw a book i bought from the fair and guess what! it costs $32.00! wow! i wanted to use the gift cards i have... but was not able to... haha... so there will be more trips to borders! save them for a textbook i wanna get... it's 70+ bucks... hehe...

i see no difference! sigh...

ha... forced myself to go for class... if not i will never finish this painting! i'm losing patience.. and this week.. i just repainted some parts! which i dun see a huge difference! my T says it is nice but i must endure the process! man.. faint lah! i really want to finish it by end of 2008! if not.. i will also just take it that it is finished! haha...

hee... my sneakers!

hee... i discovered a small tear in the sole of my mickey mouse sneakers after i finally bought a new pair! guess it knows its time is up... hehe... but sneaker sneaker i really love you! you have accompanied me for the past 5 years!

thus i decided to take a pic of it! hui has the same pair! cos we bought it together using our birthday shopping vouchers! hehe... hui do u still remember this pair of sneakers ah?

when jass can't get to sleep... (part 2 :p)

a pic finally successfully taken after shooting for more than a hundred times.... 有志者事竟成! (haha... hopefully 没有错别字! my chinese teachers gonna kill me! haha! but u get it lah... hee!)

my laptop bag! hehe!

i can't wait to use it! hee... that will be the start of my clinical internship! hee!

p.s. something very silly happened today... very silly! though i believe it's a genuine mistake... sigh...

ah... mental block...

been wanting to draw... but dunno what to draw ah... must be the effect of nuaing... but i only nua for one day! faint... tmr better be a more productive day!

for me....

L asked me why i so guai stay in spore this holiday...

haha... ya lor... y so guai...

but indeed... a holiday without vacation is very different...

i miss going on holidays!!! hehe...

thank God for His provision!

i met up with the director of ** today... i thank God for His provision ya... if not for His mercy and faithfulness, i would not have gotten this course... would not have been able to secure a place at ** for my clinical internship...

was just talking to fang yesterday abt how God has plans for us in our lives... even the trials and challenges we have to go through... told her that recently i heard some things which kind of pissed me off... it's affecting me and knowing it... i'm turning away from it... i mean i tried to influence in a more positively but they just keep going on in such negative spirit! sigh... so i just walk away... dun want to listen liao... haha... i told fang that now i know why the Lord sent me to GO before taking the course... i have really learnt alot and grew alot through the years at GO! learnt to take initiative.... learnt that nothing is perfect... learnt to forgive and take... learnt that it's ok to compromise at times... learnt that rather than trying to justify who is right and who is wrong... sometimes you just got to do it and do more! even though u think it should have be already done in a more PROPER manner! i mean what is proper! rather than waiting for things to happen! make it happen! dur rite... rather that keep on say what should have been done! and in the end... still nothing done and ultimately still have to do it! so JUST DO IT lah... aiyo... faster rite...

but i know at times i struggle too... and end up complaining... but well... i am learning too! so may i always remember what i have just said today!

to fang too... 加油 and hang on my dear friend... i believe you will see the sunshine and rainbow after the rain! perhaps now it's just a flat tyre in the rain.... you will get through ya.... after that you will be strong strong!